Infertility is the most devastating experience I have had to endure. It tested my patience, relationships and dreams. Imagine the one thing you want most in life and not being able to have it. For me, seeing others become pregnant so easily and having to celebrate Mother’s Day was always the hardest. I felt like an outsider and I questioned if I would ever be a mom.
Infertility is like Trial and Error
It seems like just yesterday, I was devastated and questioned if I would ever even have the chance to become a mom. It made me sad and frustrated to know all my friends and family members were getting pregnant but I could not. I secretly envied them, and that envy just led to more frustration. I struggled with infertility for years, not really having many answers to what was wrong. My doctor guessed it was Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS), and I say guess because PCOS is a very broad diagnosis with many different aspects. I tried countless medicines, treatments, and exercises. I remember going to pre-pregnancy yoga and acupuncture. All in hopes that one day my dream would come true.
After two years of trying I was finally ready to try In Vitro Fertilization (IVF), it was our last hope. My husband and I went to our first appointment and I remember seeing a couple coming out who was being congratulated by all the staff. Instead of celebrating them, I thought great, just one more couple able to conceive. I told the doctor about a new medicine that I had been prescribed. I explained how the medicine caused me to feel dizzy and light headed. She said to stop taking it and as a precaution she had me take a pregnancy test.
The News I Never Expected
What happened next was beyond me. I received the phone call that would change my life forever. I was going to be a mom! The nurse who called me must have thought I really did not want to be a mom since I went silent. I was in complete shock and denial. Obviously overly excited and more like starstuck, I called my husband right away and took a pregnancy test just to overcome any denial. For the first time, I saw the two clear lines. I was pregnant.
Be Kind to Other Mamas To Be
In conclusion, after two years of learning that I was going to be a mom, I will never forget my experience and cherish all those moments leading up to my pregnancy. I am thankful and so appreciative of my body, that was able to grow a tiny human and birth him. Furthermore, I always empathize with women trying to conceive and I know many of us do not. Please do not ask your friends or family members if they plan on starting a family, or when they will have a baby. The truth is you never know who is trying and what they are experiencing. All you need to do is be supportive, listen and always care.